Warning

Uni officially starts tomorrow. I have freakin 62 pages to read for Chris lee's unit before wednesday. Yes..i can hear vel chuckling...
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dont blame me for being heartless, for being distant... what point is it to carrying on hoping for something that will never happen? What makes you think today will be any different from last September? or perhaps even 2 years ago?

Few years of chances, few years of hopes....all were shattered when you made the choice. Promises are easy to make yet when they fail to come true, those are the promises that can hurt a person to his/her core. You talk of 'things will be different'- isnt that exactly what you said 3 years ago? You said you are trying, then perhaps we are not looking at the right direction- you trying one thing, and me looking for out for other things. That itself says alot isnt it? Are we still compatible then?

You said I built a barrier. You said I am cold. But the circumstances left me without a choice. If nothing changes, than what difference does it make from from our situation since last year? No, things changed. Circumstances changed. If the distinction is not being made...then both of us will be even more hurt in the long term. Yes, i am trying to heal. It will take a long time, but i am trying..and i urge you to do the same.

At this moment, nothing matters more than your studies. ONE MORE year to go. DO NOT let down your parents. If you want results, go get it yourself. Results do not come crawling to you. There is no such thing as free lunch in this world.

Everything is up to yourself. Help yourself first.
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