Thursday, December 30, 2004


had a great day out with mother. We went to expo and then headed to town. Considering that is my mother i am out with, it was to our surprise when we realised that it was already 4:30 pm when mother was looking at a bed sheet set in Tangs.

Anyway, G2000 hving a sale. Stock up on trousers and shirts. The feeling of hving grabbed a bargain feels so good... Yes. i am a cheapo at heart. What can i say?

Finished reading 'Angels and Demons". It got quite draggy towards the centre of the book. Cant Dan Brown get straight to his point? hrmph.

Oh. and of course, mother told me that she got "digital fortress". In fact, it appeared that she bought "Da vinci code", "angels n demons, and "digital fortress". It reminded me of how we used to buy the same pair of shoes but in 2 different sizes. I guess we are mother and daughter afterall.


Circumstances changed within the past 2 days. Being in singapore made me more nostalgic. Afterall, happier times were spent here. It doesnt help when i met up with him..and the strange pain can once again be felt. The words "I will fight for you" doesnt help as well.

He said the future will be different but even a simple regression exercise will show that the past predicts the future to a certain degree. And even if an outlier occur, it could be by chance. How much faith am i suppose to have. The conversation we had feels as if it was the past again. When he will make all those sweet promises and i naively believe... It makes me wonder if that is called faith?

1) I hv to remind myself the reasons why it happened
2) I hv to learn to accept the pain. And that pain will probably be part of my life frm now till the future.
3) DO i really want to face this for the rest of my life?
4) What makes this time any different frm the rest? We took a mth break earlier this year. Surely that is a big enough sign as well?
5) It confuses me when he said "it is because i dont want to lose you" when he already did. So if he doesnt want to lose me, so why didnt he worked with me for the past few years to save the situation?

walking paradox.

Yet that doesnt quite explain the pain i feel. Perhaps logic and pain dont go together. Then again, i aknowledge that it is normal. And eventually, it will just be part of me. The light is shinning throught the dark tunnel.


The cd was lovely. I cant stop listening to it. Every song touched my heart.

Choices. Got to make them. Hv to make them. Rushing into anything will not do any good. I learned frm my past mistake- just ask someone asked me to learn from other ppl's mistakes. Slow and steady.

going to do more mindless reading.


Thoughts said...

yes yes i know abt G2000 sale. still ex lah. n didn't fit too well. not to mention, it was too crowded for me to want to try anything! n the orchard branch i was at yesterday didn't have the blazer that i liked!!! urgh!

hiaz but i need more pants n stuff. going to try the chinatown shop that cheryl told me abt. it's called "suits and you" and on the corner of the 2nd floor of the building across chinatown pt. u can try there too...

u r not the only cheapo at heart lah! saw tons of stuff i wanted to buy but didn't pass the price test!

this mindless bk i bought, i think u might be keen to read it. it's called "trading up" by the author who wrote sex n the city:P

anyway gal, can u remind me what pics (if any?) i need to develop for u? i need to sort those out soon actually n send a batch for developing.

hope u had fun shopping. remember our french movie n little india date.:) can't wait for it!:) i want a stupid parrot to pick my tarrot card now n not a lady to read my palm!

as for events concerning him n the cd, i think u should know what u want n what u don't want. sometimes knowing what we don't want is easier than identifying what we want. think from that perspective, u might reach an answer/decision.

*hugs* *muacks*

we need our after dinner chocolate s** soon. i'm lonely without u:)

armand said...

V & D : you people should come to KL if you want cheapo stuff. With the exchange rate as it is now, even I can't stop buying :)

S$1 = RM2.32
A$1 = RM2.96
A$1 = S$1.27

Obligatory reference : Retrieved : 31 Dec 2004.

Thoughts said...

i want to go! i want to tailor a kebaya! but no one go wif me....

armand said...

Go convince Daphne. Or have you tried but she still resisted? Did you mention that the choc sauce is cheaper here too? :)

Thoughts said...

bleah! daf doesn't listen to me lah. anyway, u visiting singapore when again? daf asking me for places to recommend for makan. do u have anything in mind in particular?

armand said...

Arriving Singapore on the morning of 19 Jan, leaving for Perth on the evening/night of 22nd Jan.

You don't need to plan everything in detail. Don't worry! When it's meal time, we can just walk around, and sit down at any kopi tiam or shop if we find it interesting.

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