Tuesday, October 28, 2008
One year ago, you brought me on a surprise trip. We had a wonderful simple dinner with great conversation...and then you asked me to marry you. I was taken aback. I wasn't expecting it... but at the same time, moved beyond words by your commitment to us.
I always say that actions mean more than words. You knew that was my favorite song. You however, demonstrated more. You did more and you said more. While I was in shock, you continued explaining yourself on why you think it is time for us to seal our commitment and the plans you have for our future.. but I think I surprised you even more by saying yes without asking more questions.
We spoke about marriage so many times...and now, we are on this journey where we are going to make it happen. The past 1 year saw us grew and changed. For me, I have to adapt from being a clinical to research student and then to working full time in a clinical setting. I also have to adapt to being your fiancee. Just as you have to adapt to being my fiance.
I cannot promise you that I won't be impatient. Nor can I promise you that I won't have my little mini outbursts...What I can promise you is that I am continuing to learn to be a better partner..and perhaps that may take a journey of a lifetime, but at least I have the privilege to spend the time with you.
Marriage is such a big commitment. It scares me sometimes. The opposite of scared is excited and being scared and excited means that there is always room to grow and love. The seriousness that both of us take on this view also means that we are both committed to make it work despite knowing that it will get hard at times.
Then we have the positives. The lifetime witness to each other growth. How wonderful is this gift that God has given us? A shoulder to cry on. A hug to share the laughter and of course, we cannot forget the anger can we? It's all part and parcel of loving and working on a relationship.
The planning of the wedding has been interesting...and now we have 6 more months to go. Six more months till we sign on the dotted line. Six more months for us to enjoy our "Singlehood" but that's ok...we have a life time to enjoy a marriage.
All my love,
PS- recipe taken from Closest Cooking (kelvin)- Chocolate Eclairs.
I love the vanilla bean in this custard.